May’s ‘farewell’ March 27, 2009

Last Wednesday night, WE – me, Kel, Dee and Yee supposed to have dinner with May since she’s leaving to London for TWO months today. But leh..in the evening i got to know that Dee and Yee cant make it. <.< Left three of us only..in the end we called Ehuat along.
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Around 8-ish we went Boston for our dinner, May wanted to eat ‘lalas’ that’s why we went there. For two months no chinese food to eat. lol We were there till around 10pm, we wanted to go for ‘tong shui’ but dont know where got nice ones in klang. In the end, they decided to go KP for Datona. We went there but its already closed. We ended up in Bukit Tinggi, went for Pool in Amazon.
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Actually, i didnt wanna play at all. I dont know how to play. damn regret lorrr..last time someone wanna teach me but i dont want to learn. sighhhh~ Oh well, i did play in the end tho. The possibilities for me to hit the ball is…1:10000000. HAHA ei but hor..i managed to score some also leh. hmm~ about 2-3 balls? Not that bad also ryte..hehe~ We played a couple of rounds, my ‘team mate’ is Ehuat the pro, since im such an amateur. =x
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Ehuat kept on telling May that her ‘farewell’ is damn sad. ‘Farewell’ play pool. hahaha. But we did enjoyed tho. Great night i can say. We were there till 1am, and off to Esso mamak after that. Kel and i supposed to stay over in May’s house, but end up only i stayed cause Kel’s mum dont allowed. If not we might have another wee morning McD session. HEHEHE Actually ryte, i also cannot stay over, asked my dad in the afternoon and he actually said no. But i packed all my stuff still and conveniently didnt go back home. =x I thought i will get screwed real bad the next day but surprisingly, my dad didn’t say anything! WOW! lol.

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We sent Ehuat home first, then got back to May’s house around 2-ish. As usual, we talked a little and then i was hooked with May’s fon’s game. I played till around 5am only sleep. <.< Ohhoh! In the morning ryte, May’s bro told her that around 1something someone was on the rooftop trying to break in. =x Imagine we came back around 1something…gosh! lol
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=)

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with May.
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*lousy photographer*
*whistles haha
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sayangs!
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US
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action fella hiding. <.<
he damn impatient lor, dont want to let us take pic also. haha
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The next morning, our plan was to wake up at 9am, go for bah kut teh then go Greenbox @ Aeon for the morning session. But hor..9am alarm snoozed till around 1030am only May and I woke up. heheh~ 11-ish we went to pick up Kel and off to Aeon straight. lalalalala~
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tiga sekawan?
*we’re thinking of a better ‘name’* =p
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she said, “smile”
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Kel-kel
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May-may
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our fav pic.
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In the middle of the carpark with the gloomy weather. xD
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I need a new hairstyle.
what if i cut THIS style? hmmm?
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eeeeee…I lost one ‘kaki’ edy. May wont be around for two whole months. dang~ how sad ryte..heh. Nevermind, i’m sure May will miss us more! HAHA~ Enjoy your holiday May! Love ya!
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On a totally random note, look what i had for dinner yesterday at work.
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Pasta Aioli Olio with bacon, mushroom and egg. xP
that smaller plate is toast bread with butter + sugar + cheese. o.O
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compare with…
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my fren’s dinner.
Pasta bolognese only.
*no extra ‘liu’. hehehehe

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I just found out that my cook/fren – Edwin’s family is really close to my dad’s side family. His grandmother is really close to mine. I’ve known him for…almost five years? and we just knew about this. lol. Oh! He’s been treating me ‘extra’ nice lately, is like he scared i will tell my dad about him and his family will know about him. HAHA. Calling me ‘mei mei’ and all now, offering to fetch me to work also. lol. That’s why hor..my dinner extra special also one. That plate of bread he did for me also, he said “i sayang you that’s why i do for you”. <.< Obviously, i didn’t eat the bread at all la. I think he’s trying to turn me into his size. hahaha~
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First time? March 24, 2009

Last tuesday night, Ehuat brought me to try *ahem* Shisha~ lol I didn’t really enjoy it tho. I think mainly because i have freaking short breath. Damn hard for me to inhale lor.. >< I shall go for medical checkup. Oh and another reason is, Kel went along and she didn’t wanna try also. So is like both of us only. boring leh~ haha
We were there for about half an hour only lor, like some orang kaya like that..use for awhile then chao edy. jeez~
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dengan bersungguh-sungguhnya inhaling. <.<
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i cant even exhale a small ‘cloud’. wtf.
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Kel.
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After shisha-ing, we went for supper and then went Asia Cafe for pool. We left around 1am lor. Kel and I stayed over in May’s house cause the next day we going out. Our night wasn’t productive enough. o.O haha. May also surprised why we went over to her place ‘so early‘.
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Around 230am, we started craving for mcD! May and I was craving for fries and Kel was craving for ice cream. =x In the end, we decided to go out to satisfy our stomach. We ordered more than we expected, each of us ordered a large set yo. HAHA Damn piggy lor. But we enjoyed the wee morning eating tho..talking about life. <.< *damn now i feel old..haha. We sat till around 530am, there were two guys who sat next to our table playing chinese chess. Dont have to sleep one ar they all? lol
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hungry? hehe
hmm, why is May showing middle finger? HAHAHA
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She again?! rofl.

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I think we only slept around 7am, as usual May slept first, Kel and i were still talking..about ‘life’ again. <.< We suppose to wake up at 10am to go MV, but we slept so early, none of us can wake up also. We only woke up around 12pm, instead of MV, we ended up going Pyramid nia.
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It’s just one of those days.. March 17, 2009

p/s: It’s a pretty long post filled with words. Read only if you’re interested.
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Love is like falling down, in the end you’re left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever. Today was just one of those days where everything i did reminded me of you and every song i heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing that i don’t have. You’re the one who broke my heart, the reason my world fell apart for so many times, you’re the one who made me cry, yet i was still in love with you and i don’t know why.
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I know i’m not completely over you. You still crosses my mind several times a week, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes through my heart. Maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely hardened to you, and i’ll get to the point where you don’t affect me anymore.
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Sometimes, you made me feel as though I actually meant something to you, but sometimes, you made me feel like i’m no one to you. “We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all. Sometimes- no matter how long or how much you love someone, they will never love you back and somehow you have to learn to be okay with that.” How true can this quote be?
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You used to say you wont hurt me, you hate to see it and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, when i cried, did you close your eyes? You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I loved you more than you deserve, why am i such a fool? You always asked me what was wrong, i smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came rolling down, i’d whispered to myself….everything is.
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You always have an out. An exit strategy to make sure you don’t get hurt. You always walked away. You walked away before ‘they’ can walk away from you. Sometimes, i don’t know which i would rather believe, that you never did care or that you eventually stopped?
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Sad isn’t it? No matter what you did or said to me..when you came running back, when you need me again..i was there, right there waiting for you. I took you back, no question asked. Sad isn’t it? This time, it’s over, i’m keeping my heart, i’m gonna be strong and not fall apart anymore..it’ll be better, i’ll no longer cry, i won’t want to go back. I’ll be able to sleep well without thinking about you, it won’t hurt so badly and it wont hurt so deep. I know i made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life, but the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most wouldnt hurt me again. Do you ever notice that the people who hurt you the most are the ones you tend to love more? How much weirder could life be?
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Sometimes i wish i could have just screamed at you, and show you what you did to me. I always stayed because i thought “it will get better”, but after all that, i’m mad at myself for staying…so long. I don’t understand why i let myself stayed with you, after all the lies, the sides you chose, and all the tears. While i was holding on, all you ever did was to let go. No matter how many times i told myself that i’m better off without you, a part of me just won’t let go.
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In this weird twisted way, i know you miss me loving you, not because i want to believe it’s true, but because you’ll not find a girl that can put up with you like i did; you’ll never find a girl who will care as much as i did, because no one will waste all their love on you, like i did. Prove me wrong. =)
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I’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for always being nice, always apologizing although i know i’m right and i didn’t do anything wrong, for making you my life, wasting my time crying for you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, tolerating, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all..for not hating you which i know i should..but i can’t. I’m mad at myself for crying, i don’t even remember the reason but the tears keep flowing and they just won’t stop; i’m supposed to be strong but everything’s so wrong.
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I made a choice to finally let go, because i can’t stand the pain, it’s time for my last tear to fall and smile again. I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. I won’t regret those great times i had with you. I will miss you for all the good memories that we had, your smell which i could constantly remember till now, i remember i once told you how much i liked it. But now, i need to get rid of it..
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“There will always be faces you can never look at without emotions and there are names you can never hear spoken without that same old feelings returning. Just when you think you can move on, you’ll remember all the reasons why you held on so long...”
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P/s: it’s just my crap, forget everything that you just read. =x
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How’s life? March 17, 2009

This is for the broken hearted out there. I reckon this year is a bad year? I know there are a lot of relationships that have ended recently. I know how that feels. Empty? betrayed? used? no happiness whatsoever? You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but at the same time, you don’t want to cry, because it will only make you feel worse.
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You feel like your heart is falling apart, soon you’re feeling your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them? That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and all the people who hurt you the most, are normally the ones you love the most.
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And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. After a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but the truth is, you just stopped showing it. Then, you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that will be there forever.
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No one understands how you feel and how deep you’re hurt, no matter whom they are, because it hasn’t happened to them and even if it has, every broken heart is different. They will never know the true pain you carry and feel each and everyday. So you learn that basically, you’re alone with all this shiet. The feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing and you’re to the point where you don’t care who sees. That’s because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. In the midst of all those tears, you know that it’s not helping any, it’s not going to bring them back, that’s if you ever had them in the first place.
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After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “it will be okay..”. But you know better, it won’t. You will look back on all the hurt you had from this and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now, whenever you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then, you will sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this….
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Live your life the way you always want it to be, that’s the best thing to do now.
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He’s not that lucky afterall. LOL March 11, 2009

Who says if its your birthday everything will go smoothly? Best example, Ehuat punctured his tire in Damansara. HAHA. He called me around 920pm, but i didn’t answer cause i was having dinner and my fon was upstairs, while im not. >< Around 945pm, he called again, asking me to call Kelsey because he needed help. He need Kel cause he remembered i told him once that Kel is also driving CR-V. Asked me to call Kel to go down to Damansara to pass him her spare tire. Some more ask me to tell her its his birthday, so must help. LOL.
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Kel only answered his call around 10pm cause she just off work. Kel asked me to go along since she don’t really know Ehuat. *people go all out when they really need help* rofl. Kel came to fetch me around 1030pm, then we headed down to One U there to ‘save lives’. <.< btw, got guys call girls for help when they need tire one ar?
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i have nothing to do. take pic lor. haha
We reached there around 11-ish. He waited 2 hours at the roadside for a tire. o.O
but at least he’s with Damien, so its not that bad.

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while they’re sweating their ass out. lol

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we pulak become sidekicks. go there camwhore. lol
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‘mau kai’.
Ehuat’s saviour. rofl!

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can’t blame us.

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They took an hour to change the tire. We left Daman at 12am and off to SS2′s Murni for supper. We almost killed both of them on the way there, cause we’re the one leading them, and we can’t decide which way to go. o.O Don’t you think we’re the best? LoL xP We ate and talked crap till 1-ish, and left after that. I didn’t get any call from home lor..because i told im going out with Kelsey. When i wanna leave house that time also damn easy.. Dad didn’t even nag at me/tell me what time to come back. My parents are sexist. HAHA. If i go out with other people sure receive tons of sms/calls asking telling me, “still don’t want to come back?!”; “what time edy?”. <.< and if i’m not out with my girlfriends, i need to be home by 1am actually, but im always back around 130am. hehehe~ Actually, I just found out that i have curfew recently, like one and a half month ago? Do the maths, you’ll know why.
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Okay, i have to stop going out for these two days, ima having law test on Friday. boohoo~ *study study.

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eeeee..i have new accessories!
me love love the bracelet. the colour of it is so pweettyy. hehe
Thanks sayang!
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You know what…today i saw someone, after almost 2months, wearing the jersey i helped bought from S’pore.
hmm, actually, i don’t know what am i feeling when i saw * also. happy? sad? confused? nothing? how can i know? =/
When i saw *, flashback of old days start ‘flashing’ again. I think i should not be feeling anything, some things are long gone.
and it’s meant to be gone? heh
Now she’s thinking right…at least that’s what she thought so. o.O

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Enghuat’s Birthday March 10, 2009

Last night, we (Ameleen, San, Whaylyn and I) celebrated Ehuat’s bday at Funa Zushi. *yumyum* We were there from 8-10pm and after that, changed location to Modestos in Centro. Oh yeah, i met Poh Yee(ex-head prefect) there. She’s working in the jap restaurant.  When she came into our room, i was like “eh, hie!” and Ameleen & Whaylyn was like “very familiar, where i met her before”. <.< haha I was like “omg, your ex-head prefect also don’t remember?” @.@ lol.

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Oh well, I hope you enjoyed the night, and thanks for the treat yo!

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he’s not 20. <.< should see the way he open present and all.
gosh, like a 10-year-old kid! rofl
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l-r: with San, Whaylyn, Ameleen
*i know some people will be surprised to see this. haha
think of it this way, my network has just expanded? xD *
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the kid with the girls. >.>
are you as lucky as him? *coughcough*
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@ Modestos
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we sat till around 1230am. Ehuat was like wondering, “this year who will wish me leh?” lol

I know who’s the first to text him. ><

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have you observed how fast a cig burnt? *it’s not mine btw <.<* haha
woo..it’s damn fast.
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mine.
I drank this much for one hour, whereas they had like one bottle each. heh
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She says she liked me and I’m a nice person to hang out with. HAHA
would YOU like to hang out with me too? rofl
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Happie Big-TWO kawan!
thanks for the treat ya!
don’t worry about the things you asked yesterday,
if anything ever occur, i will step back.
and ima going down to Damansara to rescue you now. wtf. haha
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my dear kawan March 10, 2009

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bahh..this is the only ‘latest’ pic of us that i can find. lol
We  go minum one day k..ONE fine day. haha
Happie Big TWO !
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You should know better March 9, 2009

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Your presence had made me feel uncomfortable,
The things you’ve said, you should have kept it to yourself,
You should not let me know how you are feeling.
I don’t need anyone to feel jealous when i’m out,
You’re crossing the boundaries
You should know better
I told you what i want
and, I told you what i don’t want/need,
at least for now.
You know that will be the very last thing i want for now.
I’m sorry if,
at times i treat you cold,
sometimes too cold till you can’t reply.
I know, sometimes by doing that,
i felt bad, but at the same time,
i feel better,
because, i felt you’re just too close.
I won’t avoid you,
you told me not to too,
because i wouldn’t wanna lose a good friend.

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6(lak)-kia March 9, 2009

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woot, Happie Birthday Bran-D!

I bet you’re really surprised to see all of us when you opened your door. hehe

Hope you enjoyed though we all know you KO edy. lol

Limit yourself wei next time. you freaked me out just now. haha

happy happy birthday!

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done in less than an hour. jeez.

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Random Personality Test March 5, 2009

Do you think you don’t know yourself enough? Try this : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I think mine is pretty true tho. HAHA try it.

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Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

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The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

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Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

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The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

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Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

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The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

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How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

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What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

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Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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Here is the analysis:

1. You’ve got great self-confidence and you’re full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You don’t really care about other people’s feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn’t always about parties.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people’s advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
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All of it is mostly true. Of course there are some that i don’t think is true. lol.

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